The edges of autumn are starting to appear. It approaches quietly and without fuss. While summer is a time of freedom & escape, autumn is a return to reality. It can feel like a harsh shift, a sudden wake-up call. There is a hint of melancholy in the air. I feel as if I am trapped between two worlds, transitioning from one phase of life into the next. I’m most at home in this season. I was born in the middle of October, it makes sense.
September is a time of preparation for the cold, dark months that lie ahead. It is a moment to wind down from the excess of the summer and reconnect with what truly matters to you. An opportunity to pause and take stock of your life. What is ready to be released? What desires to stay? Where can you refine & enhance? It’s a time of questions and you may not have all the answers. Reflection is part of the process, an important part.
This month the theme is pulling myself out of a slump. It is the sulky feeling of doing what is good for me even when it is not what I want to do. It is letting go of habits and patterns that no longer align with me. It is being honest with myself. It is getting serious and focused. Finding hope, begrudgingly.
It feels as if I’m emerging from a shell I’ve been in for months, years. There is a heavy sense of obligation, the pressure of outside expectations, a desire to just be myself. I am moving with purpose, existing in my own world. It is easy to drift into nostalgia at this time of year. I see things through very different eyes now. Understanding why it came to be and accepting the role I have played. Letting it all go. Again and again and again.
The mix this month is an attempt to capture the end of summer feeling. It’s a reflection of my inner world lately. I’ve recorded multiple versions of it but this one felt the most complete. Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been listening to these songs on repeat as I write and make art. They are my inspiration right now. Maybe they will inspire you as well.
As the seasons change, I am embarking on a new journey. This project is a part of that. It’s the result of many years of work behind the scenes that no one has seen, not even the people closest to me. I had a deep wound that inhibited me from sharing my work. The only way to heal that wound is to share my work… the irony of life. I’m not entirely sure what this is or what it will become. It doesn’t really matter. I’m figuring it out as I go.
Thank you for being here for the ride.
